Recently, I took the first of three certification exams. This first test was so much harder than I thought it would be, and I had studied so hard for so long. I thought I was prepared, but I wasn’t. I think I failed. This makes me so ANGRY!!! (My impersonation of a dragon has improved.) I worked too hard to be unprepared! Was all the time spent studying a waste? I HATE waiting. I can’t bear the suspense. After a week, I called to find out how much longer before the test results were in, and was told it might be 4 – 6 weeks.

On the drive home yesterday, a beautiful acoustic guitar song with mellow harmonies broke my heart. Was my preparation a waste, and the time spent waiting – what does it mean? Does it have any worth?

I wrestle with doubts and I am uncertain.

(P.S. 6/25/14: I PASSED MY TEST!)